A Mom's letter

My dearest Nathan,

You are now 4 years old, and I am so glad for the person you have become. You know how to pray, you value your family and friends and you do well at school, you have such a brilliant mind and you look just like your dad, the resemblance is so strong that i can’t help but laugh whenever i see you both from afar. You are like his shadow, you took his mannerisms and his patience, and with that I really have to thank God. You are just four years old, i know you don’t mean it when you say nasty things to mommy, it’s just your way of expressing your independence and frustration. I know you don’t intend to hurt me, your brother or anyone around you, but at this early age, i must discipline you, otherwise you will never know what is right from wrong. Let me kiss you and hug you every time i feel like expressing my adoration for you. Let me give you a bath, even if you can do it yourself. Let me embrace you while you sleep while we still sleep in the same room. Let us wear coordinated clothes. Let mommy protect you against cruelties of life while i still can. Let’s take pictures and videos, let’s capture precious moments, so when the time comes and mommy is no longer here, you can always look back and see how much fun we had.

At 4 years old, you are already a big brother, you instantly became mommy’s little assistant. Thank you for looking after your brother, thank you for being a proud kuya, thank you for finding ways to make him stop crying. Thank you for singing moon river. Thank you for always thinking about him, you always want to buy a plush version of your toy so your brother can also play. There are times when you want daddy and mommy’s attention to be yours only, i know you are still adjusting but always remember, We love you as much as we love your brother, and you are very lucky, because for 3 years and 8 months you’ve had our undivided attention which your brother will never experience.

At 4 years old, you are developing attitude, please never abuse the power of your tears to get whatever you want. Daddy and mommy will provide and give everything if it will make you a better person. Never look down on people, a simple greeting and smile can definitely make a day brighter. Always remember to be good, to study hard and continue dreaming.

I love you so much anak, you made my life complete.